My #OLW of 2015

So I know it's February, and I know I'm late to the "resolution" bandwagon that happened a month ago, but I have been having a full-on inside battle with myself, on whether or not to make a "New Years Resolution". I kind of think they are just a big joke and people make these huge, UNREALISTIC, goals and only do them for about a month and then give up. Well as January flew by, I decided to think about the changes I want to have in 2015. Some of the bloggers I follow have started their resolution as #olw (One Little Word). This means they picked one little word to help them keep on their goals and continue of the improvements they want to have throughout the year. I'm all about goals, so I liked the simplicity of this one! So that being said, my One Little Word for 2015 is:

 

RISE.

 

Rise above the weight gain.

Rise above the dumb drama.

Rise above my own self insecurities.

Rise above depression.

Rise above my "old" self.

Rise above my trials.

When I was writing my reflection post of 2014, and I kept thinking back to that year it literally made me want to curl up in a ball and just lay on the ground. It was such a HARD year! Well because that year brought me down, I decided THIS year would bring me UP! Growing up my step mom always taught me that everything was a choice. It was my CHOICE to be offended when others said mean things. It was my CHOICE to get mad when things weren't going my way. And it was my CHOICE to rise above my trials and flaws, and become a better, HAPPIER person. My mom is so good at the whole "Choice" thing, and I have yet to figure it out...I really hope one day I can! But for now, I am making the choice to continue on rising up and moving forward. I want so many things to happen in 2015 but I know that I am the only one who can make it happen. I love the free agency we have to make our own decisions and I love that by pushing myself to keep my head up and not give up, there will be so much happiness to come! I just hate knowing it's going to be hard. Maybe not at fist, but there will be times where I just want curly fires, a large coke and a side of Hershey chocolate kisses! (That pretty much sums up last years nutrtion intake...) I know it will be hard to continue to try to see myself as a beautiful daughter of God instead of some over-weight, ugly, failure. I know it will be hard to not let what others say to me, or about me, bring me down. And I know for a fact it will be hard to remember to make a choice to rise and continue onward towards my "happiness" that I'm striving for in 2015. It is doable, I follow a ton of women and bloggers who have written out their journey and trials as a witness, and that I too, am capable of doing these great things. But I'm tired of being a "follower". I'm tired of seeing all of their success stories and their amazing before & after photos... I WANT MY OWN! So, at 12:31pm as I sit here at my desk, in my Pajamas, teeth and hair not brushed, and smelling my own "you need a shower since yesterday" stench,  I declare to all that NOW is when I start. I know I'll mess up... a lot. And I know that I may even quit or want to quit, but I am choosing right now to rise up and make this year the best year yet. I am also choosing to make a promise to myself that even if I eat chocolate or drink a delicious bubbly can of coke-a-cola, that I won't let that stop me, and I sure as hell won't let that keep me down. I believe that life is about taking risks, fighting for what you believe in, and doing what makes you happy. Being healthy makes me happy. Feeling pretty on the inside & out, makes me happy. Surrounding myself with those who truly love me, makes me happy. And by golly, (did I really just say "by golly"??), 2015 WILL make me happier and healthier.  xoxo