Life Isn't Fair, but God Is

In these last few months it has seemed that nothing is going right. From bills that have piled up higher than my own house, to my baby waking up every our at night, to school struggles and health struggles... everything has been raining down and it is all just BAD... or so it seems. This morning I was notified from my husband of another thing in life that didn't work out. I lost it. I put my baby down for a nap and cried for an hour straight, praying for God to just give us a break. For things to work out and for life to be fair and easy. I was a mess. I had no idea what we were going to do and I felt all the struggles just crash down on my shoulders. Then I went on social media to give my head a break (as I tend to do a lot). I came across an article about a topic that was everywhere in the tabloids. As I was baffled by this and what our world was coming to, feeling more frsutration, and I realized that maybe I should read something that would bring me peace and be more uplifting. I went onto lds.org and typed in "struggling"... because, let's face it, at that moment in time, the struggle was REAL. I wanted some peace in my heart and it seemed like that was just not happening. I read an article about a woman who had gone through hell and back and there came a verse she had quoted that hit me hard.... it was Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." As my eyes filled with tears, I realized that I was putting all my trust and faith into something that would eventually have ZERO outcome. I said a little prayer and felt God's love wash over me. It was such an amazing feeling and I was finally able to feel peace. I have realized that Life is NOT fair... at all. It will hit you when you least expect it and it will hit hard. It can make it hard to have hope and faith and it can seem like no good will ever come... but it will. At least, I feel like it will. Even though we are neck deep in our struggles, we still have God. We still have blessings. I have food, water, shelter, a healthy baby, a strong working husband, a working car (knock on wood hehe) and much much more to be grateful for. Why put all my trust in life, when I can put it in God who will actually make things fall into place or who will give me peace? I know things are going to still be tough, and I know that one little article and scripture don't change our situation, but I also know that somehow, my little family and I will be ok. I trust God and the Lord to take those burdens and help me through them. I trust in God to provide a way that I may not be able to see right now, but that I know is there. I honestly don't know what I would do without my Heavenly Father in my life. I can't begin to imagine how empty and lost I would be in this world. The day I joined the LDS church was the day I felt the most happy. It was also the turning point when I was being tested and tried over and over. I feel confident in where I am now and the fact that I have not given up. I feel confident in knowing that we will get through these trails and all the others to come. And I feel confident in putting my trust into God, because I know He is merciful and will continue to help us along this hard path. Sometimes I think to myself: if only things could be easier... But I have realized that life is NOT easy. It is NOT fair... but God is fair, and through my Father in Heaven my little family will make it through another struggle. I know this to be true as much as I know the sky is blue and Arizona's summers are hot... (side note, anyone else dying from the heat?! yuck!) Anyways, I just wanted to share my little "revelation" and I hope that it will give you the same peace and happiness it has given me in these hard times. xoxo